Take care

Read my dear friend's blog.... I know how you feel... honestly, I do.

It's not easy.... some people get over it fast, some people take a longer time.... the longer time you take, the hurt process is longer.

I will not give you anymore advice. You already know what you need to do. It's your life..... It's all up to you!

Take care, my Dear friend!


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Not Worth It

Had a lousy day yesterday... my boss told me that my Big Boss felt that I am not commited to my job. What?????!!!!!!!! This is really very upsetting! I spent so much time on my work and that's what I get in return!

When I tried to resign, he asked me to reconsider. Yet, he told my boss that I am not putting in my best!

My boss did not agree with my Big Boss ...but what could she do......

It's really not worth it......


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Hokkien Cuisine

Had dinner with a group of friends.... Decided at Beng Hiang Restaurant at Amoy Street. Danny from KL came for dinner as well.

This is quite a popular restaurant.... very crowded.... finally got a table. The popular dishes are Fish Maw Soup, Hokkien Noodle, Braised pork with bun, etc.... We order some other dishes as well.... It was a good dinner and the best part of it.......... Calvin treated us! Hahahahahahaha!


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Room Cleaning

Spent almost the whole day cleaning the and tidying my room! A lot of paper stuff to throw away...... some of the stuff could be used back in the office.... Did not realise I had quite a few copies of Reader's Digest not opened! Hahahahaha!

Well...my room is usually tidy and .... it still looks the same! The truth is, at least now, I am not afraid if anyone opens my cupboard! Hahahahaha!


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It's Friday Again...

Yes, it's Friday Again! Busy Friday, though.

Had to rush the stuff for my boss for her presentation. Have a group from Porsche going to Australia next month.

Then, had to get the flyers and information ready for the Macau Road Show. Our company will be at the Road Show tomorrow.

Went for the Macau Road Show Opening Ceremony this evening at VivoCity Sky Park. So warm! Some socialising and then quietly sneaked away.

Had dinner with Gerald and Cyrus. Went to Geylang for the famous frog leg porridge. Also had the famous beef noddle and some other dishes! Plenty to eat!

Then the grand finale..... Durian! Yeh!!!!! Too early for 猫山王 durian. Settle for kampung durian from Penang. Expensive......and not so delicious... Haiz..... quite a disappointment. Never mind.....will wait for 猫山王 durian.... Bought some rambutans, big pears and Pacific Rose apples...... delicious!

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Durian

Craving for durian! Suddenly, feel like eating durian........ but not supposed to eat..... high sugar content...... but cannot resist.... Ahh!!!!!!!!!!

Trying to organise a durian trip in May for the colleagues but found out that the best time is end June onwards.....Haiz...... have to look for alternative...

Was talking to a colleague about eating durian and she got excited and wanted to go straightaway for durian! Hahahahahahaha!

Seems like lots of durian fans around!

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Macau Road Show : 25 - 27 Apr

Preparing for the Road Show.. Got to attend the Trade seminar tomorrow and then the Opening Ceremony of the Road Show on Friday. 2 colleagues will be manning the booth on Saturday.

Will be busy the next few days........ always busy, anyway....


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Trip

The Trip to Bangkok next month is confirmed. Hong Kong family has issued the air tickets. Taiwan family will have the tickets issued this week. Well, they have made it clear that I have to be there....otherwise they would cancel the trip! Stressed!!!!!!!!!!

The original plan is to come to Singapore to visit me but the cost would be much higher compared to meeting in Bangkok. We have all met in Hong Kong last year.... and so... this year, Bangkok!

While I look forward to seeing all of them again, somehow my heart is not there. I guess I would rather be somewhere else........

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Still Worried....

Could not concentrate on my work today...some thing's bothering me..... I could not really tell what's wrong..... just a lot of things up on my mind....

I guessed I am still very concerned about some very dear friends, though I made a point to cut down on communication with them. I am worried for both.....

I keep telling others to move on...perhaps, the person that needs to move on is me!


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Pay Respect

The family went to the cemetery today to pay respect to Dad. Dad passed away on 25 Jan 2001. It's been more than 7 years..... I could still vividly remember the things he did .... Dad was very good to me.......



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Half Boiled Eggs

This morning, I went to the nearby coffee shop for breakfast. As usual, I will get my coffee even though I did not go over to make an order. SOP.

While enjoying my coffee, I noticed a young boy across the table from mine. He ordered 2 half boiled eggs. He took the eggs out from the hot water and interesting rubbed each egg with both palms. On fact, he rubbed each egg a few times. Why? I really do not know!

After he cracked both eggs into the small plate, he sipped the eggs slowly..... he did not beat up the eggs nor add soy sauce and pepper! Then, he sat back and you could see the satisfaction on his face.

You could tell that he always eats half boiled eggs..... so professional....... but I have never seen anyone eaten the eggs differently, like him!

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Moving on

It's always easier said than done, especially about letting it go and moving on. I know...... I went through that stage as well.

I had the experience of falling in love years ago..... and then had to let it go and move on. It was tough for me. Thoughts of ending my life filled me but I was fortunate, I managed to move on. All these years, I met some people who were very special to me and even till today, hold special places in my heart. Have I forgotten my very first love? No, I have not. However, I have moved on and the memories will always be a part of my life.

My friend, I understand the pain you are going through. It's not going to be easy but you will get over it and it will make you a stronger person. In life, we may not make the right decision all the time but at least the decision is ours and not from others.

We all need to move on and maybe one day, you would be glad that you did......

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Taxi

Was in a taxi on the way home.... chatted with the driver. According to him, it's almost back to normal. To some, the peak season surcharge of 35% seems a lot but to some others, it was manageable....not a big issue.

When you take a taxi outside CBD, you do not need to pay the CBD charge of S$3. Thus, many taxis would rather pick up passengers inside CBD than outside! That's explain why many times, 'empty' taxis would not pick up us!

This is unacceptable but the truth is....when there is additional S$3 to earn, why not???!!!!!!! Who to blame???????


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Hong Kong Disneyland

Attended a trade presentation by HKG Disneyland on the new attractions in the morning. It was good!

This afternoon the sales team from HKG Disneyland came and had a very long discussion. Had to sit in for the discussion - I take care of HKG..... There's so much they want to do together...... so much I have to look into..... and this is just HKG Disneyland....

Had dinner with Jeff. He has turned Vegetarian! But, I have not! Had to look for somewhere to fit both of us... no garlic....no onions...as well! Ahh!!!!!!!! It was tofu without the chicken floss, and vege without fried garlic..... Maybe next time....just drinks will do! Hahahahaha!


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Secret

Recently, I share a secret with a dear friend of mine. This secret is shared with very few people. So far, the response has been positive.

Glad to have shared it with you, J!

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Gathering

I realise that I have a 'strange habit' when gathering is concerned. Sometimes, it is difficult to arrange to meet up with different friends and so to make thing easy, I usually get all my friends to meet up together, even though they may not know each other. Well, I gather it's me that they want to meet up and there's no harm making new friends, at the same time!

The recent trip to KL I got my friends to have meals together! I simply introduced them to each other and realised that most of my friends knew each other! Hahahahahaha! Of course, they did not know that I knew all of them! I have the last laugh!

Nothing more wonderful than to be in the company of good friends!


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Kia Ora!

Had a very long meeting with the boss till my colleague interrupted to inform me that Abby has been waiting for more than 1 hour! I forgot! Thank goodness she came..... I had a reason to be excused!

Brought her to North Bridge Road for Fish head Steamboat and some local dishes. She liked it! We had a great time talking about New Zealand! Certainly brought back a lot of wonderful memories!

Glad that she enjoyed the meal and the company was great!

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That 25 mins Again...

This morning, travelling from Home to Office....I told myself that I would listen to news on board the bus....... well..... I listened for a while and then my mind started to drift away.....into the fantasy world I created.

Anything is possible in my fantasy world....anything! Some matters that happened got a new twist of fate in my World. Some situations were better handled in my World...

I guess escaping from reality is my way to stay sane......


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Session with my Bosses

This morning I threw in the letter. ... my immediate boss chatted with me and I told her how I felt about everything. In the evening, the Boss called me in and spoke to me. He wanted to know if I was upset with what he said. I told him that I had no idea what happened. He explained , though not in full details. I got to explained myself but I also brought up other issues. He was surprised with those issues and gave the assurance that he would sort them out. He requested that I take back the letter. I agreed.


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Trying .......

Kind of difficult for me to work today....thinking of what happened yesterday. My colleague said that I should confront my Boss and demand an explanation. I beg to differ....... It's not going to help and it may worsen the situation.

I guess either I go on and do my work and totally do not bother myself about anything that is happening around me or I just throw in the letter! I know the decision to make but......should I just give up?

Had dinner with some colleagues from the front line. This is the 1st first I am having dinner with them. Some of them have tendered and I just want to give them a treat. During the course of conversation, I realised that there is a lot of 'unhappiness' and 'bitterness' and in fact I share the same feelings as them. However, I have to act diplomatic and try not to get involved in their 'grievances'.
At least I know that they have a good impression of me so far. In fact, one of them just asked me to be the MC for their wedding! Such honour! I must be in their good books!
Wishing them all the best in their future undertakings.


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Bad Day

Boss called me in just now and suddenly told me off......telling me things I have no idea.... and then went on to talk about work. He started to repeat the things he said earlier and I begun to understand that someone has said something negative about me. The Boss did not give me a chance to explain myself and it really upset me!

I came out of the room...still having no idea what happened! My immediate superior was asked to talk to me and I told her that I had no idea what happened. She was not given the full picture but apparently someone has said something bad about me. We had a good chat and she was very supportive and she said that she did not believe those things that were said about me.

I was really upset initially....but I am ok now. Well... I cannot prevent this from happening....but it has taught me one thing.... I really cannot trust the colleagues around me!


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Dateline

Boss wanted us to present our plan for the next 6 - 9 months this week. Already Wednesday.... I still have not got it done. Only managed to pull out the sales for the 1st 3 months and in the midst of tabulating them (manually....haiz).

At this moment, I really cannot work out the realistic plan for next 6 - 9 months. I can put up one...but it will not be achievable......

The travel market is quite soft this month... but the Boss will not buy that.....

Haiz....


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On The Bus

Everyday when I travel from home to work, I let my mind wonder off....sometimes building castle in the air. The 25 mins, or so, on the bus give ample time to do that......

Events the day before and even way before would appear before me and sometimes I would building my own fantasies.... smile at them.... when I need to get back to reality.

I get to appreciate the time I have on the bus because it allows me to escape from reality...for that moment....

Often I make use of the time thinking of my friends, and the wonderful time I spent with them.... the trips to KL, the dinners, the gatherings, etc..... Some people appear more often than others... few always appear...... many close friends...many dear friends....... few special ones..... a handful close to heart.... (huh, any difference? Hahahahahaha!)

Some of the fantasies will never happen...but in that space of time .... they are as real as they can be. To me.... that's good enough.


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Best Wishes, My Friend

Met a good friend last night and spoke about many things. He is giving up Singapore and going back to Malaysia soon.

I remember he gave up Malaysia to come to Singapore 2 years ago. He came here for love but it did not work out. He managed to find work and things were working out pretty well for him.

Now, he found love back in Malaysia and he will give up Singapore. I am happy for him but at the same time, sad. Happy that he has found his love; sad that he is giving up what he works so hard for.... a better life overseas.

There was someone he liked very much but that person disappointed him....

Anyway.... he has moved on and I am glad he has met someone with mutual liking for each other. Certainly hope everything will turn out well.

All the best, , my friend! May you find True Love back home!

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Uncle Ben's Column

If you need someone to listen to; if you need to vent your frustration/angry at someone, Uncle Ben is here!

Uncle Ben may not have the solution for you, but he has a Big Heart and Broad Shoulders for you, anytime!

Uncle Ben is here and always will be .......... for you!

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Love Yourself More

Spent the day with an old friend from Malaysia. He is having problem in his relationship. Nothing I can do but to lend him my ears and my broad shoulders!

He sacrificed a lot for the person he loved and though he did not expect anything in return, he felt the least he should expect is appreciation and gratitude from the other person. He did not get them.....

He knows I would go out of my way for friends but he encourages me to learn to love myself more. Take care of myself! Others will take care of themselves! He does not want me to end up like him, always putting others first.

I have many close friends and a few are very dear to me. I spend a lot of my time and effort to maintain or grow the friendship. Sometimes, I wonder..... what would their lives be without me? It could be better...it could be worse.... the truth is ...life will still go on for them, without me!

Perhaps, I should just think for myself....... love myself more....pamper myself......


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Athena System

This must be the most inefficient system I haveever used! We use this system for our reservation and fare management. It is really not user-friendly!!!!! Guess what, no enhancement allowed!!!!!!! Have to put up with the system until...... !!!!!!!!!

Boss wanted the sales report for the last few months. The system cannot generate the report according to what the Boss wanted...so frustrating! I have to manually do up the sales report! This is a Big Company but the system is so 'ancient'!!!!!!!


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Qing Ming Festival

A few good & close friends going back for Qing Ming. Safe journey!


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Office

The Boss called me in this afternoon to ask about some consortium matter...and then asked me to closed the door.... so many things he expected me to do..... wonder why he did not tell me earlier... only telling me after so long! Well....more work...coming up!

A few colleagues have tendered in their resignation. Good colleagues...really a waste.... well....since they are moving on for the better... they have my blessings!

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Taiwan called......Hong Kong also called.... seemed like 8 - 12 May is a good time to meet in Bangkok. Need to look into accommodation for all.....

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International Family Gathering

Was talking to my international family today.

I thought we were supposed to be meeting in BKK this month. I was wrong. Wallace and Frankie are looking forward to Taiwan when Jack's new place is ready in May. But, Jack does not plan to take a break in Taiwan! He wants to go overseas! Well...Singapore is really expensive and the final decision is back to BKK! Hahahahahaha!

Looking at early May to BKK. Daddy would be just back from Japan and should not be a problem to all meet up. Will see how it goes.


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